day dream

2011-06-15T06:40:00.000-07:00

“I want to tear myself from this place, from this reality, rise up like a cloud and float away, melt into this humid summer night and dissolve somewhere far, over the hills. But I am here, my legs blocks of concrete, my lungs empty of air, my throat burning. There will be no floating away.”

—	Khaled Hosseini (The Kite Runner)

2010-08-17T17:58:00.000-07:00

“I opened my eyes
And looked up at the rain,
And it dripped in my head
And flowed into my brain,
And all that I hear as I lie in my bed
Is the slishity-slosh of the rain in my head.

I step very softly,
I walk very slow,
I can’t do a handstand—
I might overflow,
So pardon the wild crazy thing I just said—
I’m just not the same since there’s rain in my head.”

— Shel Silverstein

2010-05-30T23:46:00.000-07:00

“Let the rain kiss you. Let the rain beat upon your head with silver liquid drops. Let the rain sing you a lullaby.”
-Langston Hughes

2010-01-26T20:45:00.000-08:00

something i dug out of my old and now obsolete blog, edited a few words... i reckon i haven't posted it here yet,
i think it rightfully belongs to this blog...

from the evergreens to the concrete streets,

from cool breezes to warm air,

from colored flowers to gray sidewalks,

from silence to ceaseless noise,

from stillness to the hustle and bustle of the city,

from giggles to sighs,

from rainbows to shades of black and white,

from dreams to reality…

2009-09-10T23:44:00.001-07:00

As against having beautiful workshops, studios, etc., one writes best in a cellar on a rainy day.
- Van Wyck Brooks

cloud express

2008-11-10T16:00:00.000-08:00

if i could just take a cloud,
float away from here
be closer to the blue sky,
bask more in sunshine.

if i could just take a cloud,
lie down in comfort,
close my eyes
and dream away.

if i could just take a cloud,
and soar the skies
make rain fall down when clouds turn to gray
then chase rainbows all day.

if i could just take a cloud,
i'd gaze down the world below.
look for you in the crowd,
and watch you as i drift away.

talk to me - keri noble

2008-11-09T16:57:00.000-08:00

There you are again
I see you all the time
We haven’t really met yet,
But you know, I don’t mind
’Cuz I think today’s the day
I’m gonna go right up and say to you
Would it be alright
If I called you up sometime?

There you go again
I let you get away
At least I’ve got more time
To think of what I might say (like)
“Couldn’t we be good” (or maybe)
“Don’t you think that we should find
Some quiet little place where we’d make love all day?”

Come and talk to me
What are you waiting for
’Cuz I can see you passing every day and
I’m always wanting more
Come and talk to me
What are you gonna do
’Cuz I can’t seem to get the nerve to get off my own ass
And come and talk to you

You know I love the type
You look like you’ve been up all night
And yet somehow still look beautiful
You do it all at the same time
Whenever you walk by
You always look me in the eyes
And in that moment I know
the same thing’s on your mind

Come and talk to me
What are you waiting for
’Cuz I can see you passing every day and
I’m always wanting more
Come and talk to me
What are you gonna do
’Cuz I can’t seem to get the nerve to get off my own ass
And come and talk to you

It always seems to be that I let the good things pass by
Because I let my fear stop me (but not this time)

2008-07-13T00:24:00.001-07:00

it's just anothr rainy day
singing a song stuck to my head
along with pensive thoughts
i used to push away

it's just another rainy day
alone sipping some tea
and staring outside this window
as the sky turns to gray

it's just another rainy day
wondering again about yesterday
should i wait all over again
or maybe just let it drift away?

2007-09-23T23:18:00.000-07:00

i stare out the window and watch,
as the rain pours down and kisses the dry earth.

two different things that found their way to each other.
a love that creates a rainbow,
a love that makes a flower bloom and a seed grow.

could i then believe that you and me could be somehow meant to be?
should i be like the earth hopeful for the day for you to come
and fall down from the sky?
Should i be like the rain searching for you all over the earth?

2007-02-11T23:21:00.000-08:00

One second,

and there he is.

rain stops falling,

earth stops spinning.

Another second,

arm brushes against his.

clouds beneath my feet,

heart skips a beat.

Next second,

he's out of sight.

back to hard ground,

earth spins around.

2007-02-10T03:06:00.000-08:00

long time no update... i know it's been a long time since i posted a poem or a fave song here... I guess I was just really busy with school stuff.. but don't worry a poem is currently lurking in my mind... so ill be posting it here soon after these exams are through or as soon as i have time... hehe...

2006-08-07T20:07:00.000-07:00

how can you be so near?
yet feel so far away,
how can it be real?
when i dream of you night and day?

why is it so complicated?
when its all simply true?
but why is it so hard to tell,
that i have fallen in love with you?

for you i will - teddy geiger

2006-06-12T23:58:00.000-07:00

Alright, yeah
I'm wandering the streets,
in a world underneath it all
Nothing seems to be, nothing tastes as sweet
As what I can't have
Like you and the way that you're twisting your hair round your finger
Tonight I'm not afraid to tell you
What I feel about you.

Oh, I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
and cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will, For you I will

Forgive me if I st-stutter
From all of the clutter in my head
Cuz I could fall asleep in those eyes
Like a water bed Do I seem familiar,
I've crossed you in hallways a thousand times,
no more camouflage I want to be exposed,
and not be afraid to fall.
Oh, I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will

You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will, For you I will, For you I will

For you
If I could dim the lights in the mall
And create a mood I would
Shout out your name so it echos in every room I would
That's what I'd do,
That's what I'd do to get through to you, yeah

Oh, I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence
I have For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will, For you I will,
For you I will
For you I will

4 d*z`a

entangled

2006-05-25T04:18:00.000-07:00

here i am again, stranded in nowhere,

running away from the past, fearful of the future;

searching for the courage i never seemed to have,

finding a hope that had just drifted away.

in this dark confusion,

i try to find a ray of light.

hoping that my questions could be answered,

my fears washed away

and my deepest wishes granted.

im a desperate soul, hopeless and dying inside.

pain and sorrow strained every bit of my strength

and left me nothing but a broken heart.

bruised and weary from all the pain,

i can barely stand with my withered spirit.

i close my eyes and dream,

feel like i was in a different world.

but i open my eyes and cry,

to find out how far away it is from reality.

i seek for a hand to hold,

but no one could see me.

for i only cry inside,

and scream in silence...

i wanted to fly way to finally break free,

but battered wings are all that's left

from what was once my magnificence.

now i am shattered.

groping for a string of hope in this ominous darkness.

now hear me...

hold my hand.

for only you can mend my broken heart,

comfort my withered spirit,

and shine through my desperate soul.

wrap me in your wings and fly me away.

save me from the tears ive shed

that now drowns me in my fears....

then take me as i am...

2006-04-10T08:51:00.000-07:00

TO BE NEAR YOU
VIKTORIA

Are you just a habit

Or some kind of addiction

Can't seem to get you out of my system

What good you have done to me

Feels so stuck like glue

Turn the pages in my head. theres only you

REFRAIN:

I don't care I would do anything to be near you

I would go anywhere to be near you

Am I truly hopeless

Am I being a fool

Are you even aware of my existence

Would mean everything to me

If you spend a little time

Could you give it to me with the least resistance

[REPEAT REFRAIN]

Ahhh...

( I don't care)

I would do anything to be near you

I would go anywhere to be near you

I would do anything to be near you

(I would do anything) to be near you

(i would go anywhere) huh... to be near you

(I would do anything) to be near you

I would go anywhere

To be near you, to be near you

to be near you, to be near you...........

an angel walked past me today...

2006-03-24T02:54:00.000-08:00

an angel walked past me today,
with wings as bright as the sun rays.
i got completely lost in his eyes,
no words would ever suffice.

an angel walked past me today,
with a voice that could melt my heart away.
how i wish he'd sing a song for me,
but it seems like it could never be.

an angel walked past me today,
as he always does.
but he doesn't even have an inkling of how i exist,
im just someone way down the list.

an angel walked past me today,
i wanted to catch him, but i was afraid he'd fly away.
and everytime i try to get near,
it's as if i was never here.

but maybe someday, when he passes by again,
maybe i'll have enough courage, by then,
to make myself finally visible,
be someone recognizable.

maybe someday, i wouldn't have to wait for any sign,
maybe someday i can make that angel mine.
maybe someday i wouldn't have to wait any long,
maybe someday, he'd finally sing me a song.

but for now, i'm happy just to see him from afar,
so tonight, as always, i'll wish upon the brightest star,
because an angel walked past me today...
and took my breath away....

*-_at the touch of love, everyone becomes a poet-plato_-*

2006-03-11T09:19:00.001-08:00

it takes a while to smile again,
when promises are finally made to happen.
it takes a while to turn around,
to walk away and just wait to be found.
it takes a while to understand,
until someone finally gives a helping hand.
it takes a while for the rain to stop,
til there's nothing more than just a teardrop.

2006-03-11T09:19:00.000-08:00

2006-01-30T22:23:00.000-08:00

she stands in the rain all alone,
drenched with the pain she bears on her own.
she shivers as her thoughts cloud her mind,
fate never seemed to be so kind.
she walks down the street,
the cold's too hard to beat.
she wanders aimlessly,
trying to find her way out desperately.
as th cold continue to bite,
she tries to make it through the endless night.
but the odds seem to be too subtle,
its like fighting a losing battle.
in this world full of lies,
she silently screams and cries,
drenches herself as she looks for her way,
and wishing that the rain would just wash her sorrows all away.

2005-08-22T21:07:00.000-07:00

she wakes up everyday wishing it was still the other year,
wondering what today would be if she wasnt here...
she walks through the halls not knowing where to go...
every minute passes by so slow...

amidst the noise around her,
she holds her thoughts in silence...
amidst the multitude of people...
she remains unseen...
she tries to understand every word...
but there's nothing she can comprehend...

she tries to feel that everythings alright...
but she feels like giving up the fight...
she tries to paint on a smile...
and pretend shes's okay all the while...
but deep inside she's weary from all the pain...
its makin her feel insane...

still a part of her hopes of a better day,
where dreams wont be so far away...
where trusting won't be so hard to do,
and being accepted is easier too,
one day she'll lay down in bed...
and tears shall no longer be shed...

2005-08-09T22:02:00.000-07:00

im tired of being here,
im always filled with fear.
i feel lost from where im standing,
so unsure of where im heading.
im achin' from all the pain,
how much more do i have to sustain?
ive tried so hard to be tough,
but it seems not enough.
im broken from hopelessness,
with no one aware of my distress,
everything's so strange,
im so out of their range.
im dying to run away,
and go back to the place where id rather stay.
to where i know i'll be happy,
bring me back to where i used to be....

2005-07-20T22:10:00.000-07:00

what can i do to let you know i'm here...
what can i say to make you smile...
uv probably heard it all before...
but still you would ignore...
i wish i could be like her...
but i know i can never be...
all i can do...
is to love you
and just be me...

2005-07-20T22:02:00.000-07:00

i look into your eyes,
but i see nothing.
i hear your voice,
but the words are unfeeling.
i sense your presence,
but your mind is wandering.
i feel your touch,
though cold and uncaring.
i open my arms,
but you seek her embrace.
i try to comfort,
but then i couldn't take her place
.i tried to be her,
but i know i can never be.
you were meant for each other,
might as well set you free.

2005-07-18T00:03:00.000-07:00

our paths once crossed,
but its time to go.
i know i'll feel lost,
and it hurts me so.

i tried to hold on,
but you just let go of me,
and now its all gone
isn't it plain to see...

fate could have brought us together,
but i guess it wasn't meant to be forever,
for we were already worlds apart,
right from the very start.

goodbye, is all i can say.
im sorry i have to go away,
i guess ill be okay,
hopin' to hear you say, "please stay.."

2005-07-14T04:48:00.000-07:00

ahh.. there's nothin like the rain...

2005-06-25T09:12:00.000-07:00

its been a long time since i updated this blog....
i was really busy with school...
neways, last night we went to karen's debut at shangrila resto...
we had fun coz it was almost like a reunion...
we talked all night, updating one another 'bout our own lives....
the food was good...
aerica skipped the rest of the dishes for desSert... hehe...
after that we took pictures and then went home...
haay! i haven't finished studying my lessons yet...
better do it now...
tata...

2005-06-13T21:01:00.000-07:00

last week... rain kept falling evry single night...
now it stopped again....
ish!!! tomorrow's another school day...
i hate goin' to school
i used to like it...
dunno why im feeling this way right now ever since i transferred in manila...

2005-05-22T20:00:00.000-07:00

im dying to hear the rain...... hasn't rained for days...
should be the rainy season already....

2005-05-17T20:13:00.000-07:00

let the rain wash down what i feel..
let the thunder roar
til i can no longer hear...
what my heart keeps saying...
let the lightning flash...
til i could'nt see...
the memories that im forgetting.

2005-05-14T23:34:00.000-07:00

i wished upon it on a star...
but it fell down bringing back nothing but a scar...

i whispered it to the sea...
but the waves just brought it back to me...

ishouted it out to the sky today,
but the wind blew it all away...

so i sang it to the breeze...
but the birds sang a more beautiful song...
and mine was left unheard...

how will u ever know...
that i have fallen in love with you...

2005-05-12T07:05:00.000-07:00

like the sky...
here i cry...
gray clouds passed my eyes...
as i filled my mind with lies...
praying that sumhow you'd be...
feeling the same way about me...
i know i will have to wait...
even if you come too late...
even if i have to stand alone in the rain...
even if...
i have to wait in vain...